I tend to lose meself in thing these day's. Lost in a book, a movie, the car, a song. The other night about 11pm I went out for a walk in the park, after a bit I sat down on a swing and got lost in random unimportant but interesting thought the next thing I knew it was 2am. Not that it matter'd all that much I had no ware to be, but it brought me to thinking that I am losing to much time in my head. Back to the med's for me. Medication makes me function in reality witch is good, however it also takes away all of my drive to create ANYTHING. Oh well, it is only that I was liking being free of them the last 6 months. Such is life, you can't exist in a world all to you'r self for long before losing you'r self to that world. It is just so damn hard to drage myself from that world I love so much. The medication always makes me a bit dead inside.

Well I have not been on hear in forever, but I was board so i figuard I would come back and take a look around.

well cant sleep so thought i would use the time to post. i dont find the time to due it to offten. i hope to be back in the darkroom soon. also going to be setting up a date to due some more rope bondage. i allways have a good time when i am haging from the rafters. but it is a little difficult trying to set up a shot of yourself haging in the air befor you get thare. ohwell.

it seems to me that the people in this fucked up world just take them selfs and life to damn serieously. why do people sweet the small stuff. after having spinal meninjitious, hoopingcough, westnile virous, being in 3 saver car accdents, having 1 major and 2 minor sugical procedures, and being struck by lightning twice i have learned, life is to damn short just get the fuck over it and learn to live for the time you do have and live it to its fullest. becouse one day youll turnarond and it will all be over. and learn to love to the fullest and as much as you can. the people in your lives will be gone before you know it. dont let them go without leting them know your true fellings, what ever thay may be.

hate is a strong word use it in all its true sence.

so i just started taking pictures and working in the darkroom about 3 months ago. i have decided i like it, its fun. i think i will keep doing it, and who knows maby i will get good at it. i look around this site and thare so many talented people, it shocks me. i see alot of digital stuff that just blows my mind (but seeing as how i am pc chalanged thats not liklely any thing i could due). anyway i am glad i found this place. i think it will be a good learning tool for me as i figure out just what the hell i am doing (seeing that as of yet i realy dont know). i think that with a bit more practice however, i just might figure out what all the crap on my camera is for before the year is out (hehehe).